Grey

There is no white, there is no black.
There is no reason to turning back,
And no reason to go ahead.
Would you lose that head?

No white, no black, All is just grey.
Deadening mediocre grey
Or unifying wonderful grey?
All is grey.

Grey as nothing,
Grey in everything.

Bwa3 in Lalaland

Note: post with arabic phonetics.





Little bwa3 was born in Lalaland, a somewhat magical land, not far away from earth. Bwa3 was a nice kid. He played nice little games like all the kids. He ran in fields. He had a pet named 3lak that liked to lick Bwa3 tiny little fingers. Bwa3 was happy in lalaland. Lalaland is a land of many wonderful but maybe silly things. The land had vivid colors like the rainbow, strong sweet smells, happy lalapeople jumping all around dancing all day long, cute lalapeople sleeping at night cuddled up like little fur balls, and everything a nice little boy named Bwa3 would need. Everyone was free in lalaland, doing what they liked best.

Bwa3 grew up. He had to leave lalaland as everyone else does when they grow up. Bwa3 was now on earth. Bwa3 was very excited to be on earth. All that Bwa3 wanted to do was to tell the earthpeople about lalaland, that it was a great land where everyone was happy. He had some pity for the earthpeople running around all day long doing so many unimportant stuffs. Bwa3 wanted everyone to know about lalaland. But, Bwa3 was such a weird creature to be on earth. It was the single most interesting thing anyone on earth had seen. Whenever anyone looked at Bwa3, they would laugh. Bwa3 was very funny to earthpeople. No one would take care of Bwa3, or even talk to him. Bwa3 was very lonely. Bwa3 didn’t understand what they were laughing about. Bwa3 was sad. Bwa3 missed lalaland so much. One lonely night, Bwa3 was crying under a star, and he wished that everyone on earth would get the chance to see lalaland. That night, like in lalaland magic, everyone on earth saw lalaland in their dreams. Every earthman and earthwoman lived in lalaland in their dreams, they had the chance to see the beautiful cute lalaland.

The next morning was not a regular morning. The earthpeople were impressed by their wonderful dream. They all wanted to know about Lalaland. Bwa3 was happy that everyone loved him now. Bwa3 was laughing again. Bwa3 was happy again, like he was in lalaland. Bwa3 decided to travel and meet every earthman and earthwoman and tell them about lalaland. Bwa3 was jumping around again, like a nice little kid in lalaland. Whenever Bwa3 met some earthpeople, Bwa3 would tell the earthpeople to just say “Bwa33333333333”, “BBBbwaaaaaaaaaa33”, “Bwwwwwaaa3”, “BWA33”… because if they just call his name, they will see Lalaland, the land where Bwa3 came from. The earthpeople were very happy with this discovery of a new wonderful land like Lalaland. All they did was Bwa3 all day long. And everyone on earth lived a happy ending and utter destruction of their world. Bwa3.

The crazy world

There is a need for some crazier posts…

The keyword is “crazier”/“crazy”: The world is crazy. Too many people bumping around too many people, doing too many things to each other. Too many stuffs getting swapped, robbed, given, squeezed, taken, eaten. Too many talks over the universe, the girl next door, the society, the rotten sandwich you ate last time, the political affiliation of African monkeys, the “accident” at work with the boss. The world is really crazy. Come on man, we need some rules. This can’t go on like this.

The keyword is “rules”: The world has rules. Lots of them: “You can’t tell me this”, don’t put your hands on the stove, don’t drive too fast, don’t eat too much. The world even has people for making rules: lawyers, crappy managers restructuring company rules every time there’s a problem, the stupid girl at the counter who can’t sell you this item until the boss comes, the know it all in your study group who thinks this essay has to be like this, the cable guy, your parents. There are rules, yet, the world is crazy.

The keyword is “crazy” (yeah again, it's an important word, you know): rules are just crazy. Don’t go there, don’t do that, don’t think that, don’t feel that, don’t tell your girlfriend she’s a fat cow, don’t tell your boyfriend he’s a low life underachiever, don’t drink too much coffee, don’t say those mean things, don’t go to that party where they’ll be those people, don’t pay by credit card because it’s not accepted here, don’t sleep late, don’t smoke, don’t drink and drive, double check the parachute, don’t look him/her in the eyes like that, leave tips, don’t cross the road now, don’t be nice to that guy, don’t talk dirty to me, don’t be attracted to that girl, don’t think much about that, don’t get too hung up in your life, lock the doors, don’t get too relaxed, don’t show me those obscene pictures, don’t put too much perfume, don’t gaze people in the eyes, don’t try weird sexual positions… rules, rules, rules. Who made those rules? What are they are for? Those are surely making the world go crazy. But hey, you live by those rules… Are you crazy?

See what "Crazy" means or just see the word "Crazy" one more time:
Adjective: crazy (crazier,craziest)
1. Affected with madness or insanity
2. Foolish; totally unsound
3. Marked by foolish or unreasoning fondness
4. Possessed by inordinate excitement
5. Bizarre or fantastic
6. Intensely enthusiastic about or preoccupied with

The Finality

Everyday, you travel past, present and future. You remember what you did, how you were, You look at what you are doing, You plan the next week end, You may recall that conversation that happened between you and your friend, You think about what to say to your lover at that special date because it’s not been working out quite well lately, You smell that deliciously cooked meal, You recall what’s before? What’s after? What’s in between? …

The keyword is “between”: You’re in between your past, present and future lives. Yes, you have three lives, maybe more. You have the right to look into everything so you are just exercising that right, looking inside all those lives. But, You DO have to make a choice. Don’t you?
The questions go like this:
Which life do you really want to live? …
Where do you want to be? …
When do you want to know the good and bad times? …
Where do you want that sweet kiss to land? In a memory, in a hope or in this moment?
Where do you want that sweet kiss to land? In a memory? in a hope? in this moment …
In a memory, in a hope, in this moment …
Are you feeling this kiss this moment? … Just think about that kiss.
There is no kiss now, right? You felt it, right?

Do you know where everything is heading now? …
You probably don’t, that’s ok. Where is the end to all this? …

The keyword is “end”: Are you (still) looking for an end to all this constant back and forth journey? The past’s treasures aren’t here anymore and the future still hides his.
Where to look? Are you looking for an end, for finality?

The keyword is “finality”: Wherever you go, there is no finality; the finality is just here and now: You are just reading this…

Yet, when you are here and now, there will be no finality; finality once found, will disappear: You are still just reading this…


Think about that, post some comments. I’m sure this post won’t be the end…

Solve this

This is something to think of. I’m sure you can relate to it.

It’s one of those sweet afternoons. You have your sweetest music on. You have much to do but nothing you couldn’t handle for later. You are just chilling here.

Here’s a feeling that might come to you: “I am good here. I feel good.” You might think: “Hey, this is nice. It’s all good. I have all I need, I want nothing”. You want nothing, that’s good. You really do not want anything, that’s great! You achieved this feeling with not so much stuffs around you, not so much to do or think. This is a great state, “wanting nothing”, “having all you need”. It is something every man is looking for. Yet, it is now available to you. In fact, come to think of it, you have felt that before, it’s just now that you realize it.

Can you keep that state? Not for long, I bet. Just when you realize you want nothing, sooner or later, you will start wanting bigger things. Just when you thought you have all you need, you realize you will need more. You have all you desire, yet, you will surely desire more.

So you are here wanting nothing, feeling good about that. And you are here desiring more.
Solve this, what will you do? What will you really do?

Think of Possibilities

Please read this very, very slowly, it is interactive.

Think about your past. Where you were, where you’ve been, what you did it, when you did it, how you did it, why you did it. You carry this past with you, wherever you go, whenever you are, whatever you do. This is the past. The past is heavy. It slows you down sometimes. The past haunts you sometimes. The past dives in uninvited reminding you of tragedies, happy moments, stupid mistakes, intelligent breakthroughs or just lucky breaks. The past is what you did and what you were. The past is your journal. You write it as you move on through this life. The journal is always there, you will always find it. Hey, but the past is over, you are here now.

Think about your present. Think about where you are now. Think about the time now. Think about how you feel now. Think about what you are doing now. Here you are just reading this now, no more, no less. This is the present. This is just you, where you are, reading this. There’s no one here, there’s no time, there are no plans and there are no worries. This is now. Now, there is nothing but the present, the now.

Think about the now. Think about how it may become. Think about what you can do. Think about the possibilities you have now. I remind you that the past is over. The past has passed. There is just the now. The possibilities you have now are not those of the past. Think about the possibilities you have now. Think only about that. If you feel that there’s not much for you to do now, that there isn’t much possibilities, think again. Keep thinking until you find all that you can do. The possibilities are larger now, right? of course.
If you still have limited possibilities, think again, until you finally realize that the possibilities you have now are endless. Endless, yes. You couldn’t write them down or list them. Not by any way.
I have a point. As you are reading this now, you will find that you can stop reading this junk, you can continue too if you like it. That’s a possibility, just one…
… I’m glad you’re still reading.
The point of all this is that where you are now is all that matters. This is where you should be and this is where you want to be. This is where you can do and act. This is where you have it all, all the possibilities. This is where you have the choice between the possibilities.

Now, Think about what you WANT to be. Think about what you WANT do. Think about when you WANT do it.
Now, read this again, the possibilities are now.

Know what you want

After this long wait, you gentlemen and lovely women need something. The keyword never stopped, it just wasnt published. Anyway, The keyword is back.


The keywords are “Know what you want”. Let me break this down to you.

The keyword is “Know”. Know everything. Know all that you see, all that you feel, all that you hear. Know it in all its aspects, its forms, its realities, its illusions. I might even say, Know it like you own it. To know is just be aware. That is not very simple, though. Just, try to make it simple.

The keyword is “what”. You don’t need everything. You don’t want everything. You may think you want lots of things.
Stop reading now, ask yourself what do you really want now. Just try to know what you want now. At this very moment…

… done?, good. I bet it wasn’t many things or at least not as many things as you thought there will be.

Here’s another aspect of the keyword “what”,
What causes what? What creates what? What induces what? The effects of the what are as important as the what itself. The effects of your action is as important as the action itself. The “what” you want has many layers. The “what” has so many implications. Know the aspects of your what.

The keyword is “you”. It’s all about you. Everything is about you. You have your goals. You have your needs, your desires, your thoughts, your expressions, your silly remarks, your wonderful talks, your past failures, your present discoveries, your future goals. You are heading somewhere. Where’s that again? Tell me…

The keyword is “want”. You want to be happy, just that. You maybe want everyone to be happy, or maybe not. You want this because it will make you happy, or well, happier than you are now. Your desires rule you. This is just true. Know what your desires are. Know how you “carry” them around you. Know how many of them confuse you. Know what desires to have.

Know what you want. Let’s review what you have discovered:
Try to be aware of things, try to be aware of the different aspects of the thing, try to relate them to you and your goals, act and then indulge your desire. If you don’t succeed, you just keep trying or just ask yourself is that really what you want?
If by some weird and fortunate situation you find yourself one moment, wanting nothing. Yes, wanting nothing whatsoever. Enjoy it. And, guess what, you can now fully choose what you really want. Enjoy that too.

The life(s) you choose

Life is about choices, shitty (as in hard) choices mostly. Choices are a chance (or a need) to change. Change is a desire to develop and to improve, a wish for a tomorrow better than today. It all breaks down to this one simple wish. This wish should define all good and bad changes, choices and lives.

The keyword is “define”: describe and identify. Think about something good. Think about something bad. Compare the two. There is mainly no difference in the (good or bad) objects concerned at any level, just your perception changes, just the “way” you feel about it.

The keyword is “feel”: You feel good. You feel bad. You know good because you’ve known bad (or you’re going to know it in the near future). You perceive the good compared to the bad. You recognize the bad related to the good.

The keyword is “perception”: perception is always biased. It’s never so-called objective or “pure”… You can’t stop feeling, can’t you? All you see, even so called objectively, is what you feel. The objectiveness or “purity” of an idea is only related to how much you can conceive change and new ideas or, more precisely, to how much good fresh ideas make you feel.
There is no static, structured, fixed, ordered higher truth. The higher truth only emanates from your feelings.

Life is about choices, shitty (as in hard) choices mostly. Choices are a chance (or a need) to change. Change is a desire to develop, a wish for a tomorrow better than today. It all breaks down to this one simple wish. This wish should define all good and bad changes, choices and lives.
(The text repetition is here to make you re-read with a new perspective)

The keyword is “wish”: At some point of your life, you had/have/will have a choice to make. You conceive the possible alternatives of your choice; you weigh them according to one another; you choose the best option.
“This wish should define all good and bad.”
This wish is the will to learn new things, to adopt new ideas, to support new concepts, to be totally free, to be open to all suggestions, to be compassionate to differences.
This wish is the will to sustain change.
Sounds like an oxymoron? It’s not. Re-read please.
Don’t regard change as a rupture or a break; it never is. If it seems so, you just were not aware of the subtle differences earlier, you weren’t prepared for alternatives, you couldn’t perceive or conceive them.
All moves subtle and smooth.
Be aware of it, be tuned to it and choices will seem like never-ending soft waves of the tranquil ocean; ripples in the vast always stirring big structure.

Life is about choices, shitty (as in hard) choices mostly. Choices are a chance (or a need) to change. Change is a desire to develop, a wish for a tomorrow better than today. It all breaks down to this one simple wish. This wish should define all good and bad changes, choices and lives.
(The text repetition is here to make you re-read with an better new perspective)

Mundus Absurdus

Dépraver de toute lueur nocturne dans une ère de myriade
Aucun sens de l’humour et moult ironies et maintes cavalcades
Aucun signe de principes droits et sans droit de sentimentalisme
Exode du puritanisme authentique et départ du rationalisme
Avènement du matérialisme et prise des essentialistes
Par des existentialistes et un système élito-totalitariste
Empuantissement des mémoires collectives et des goûts
Effondrement des pyramides théologiques et des manitous
Ascension des mouvements pudiques et sectes ahurissants
Adoration de la chaire, de la matière, de la guerre et du sang.

by Jihad Khalil, jihadkhalil@gmail.com